AATHMAN AWARENESS CENTRE

Guru's initiation.
Guru obtained deeksha from Yogi thiruvaasar at the age of 21. For 3 years he immersed himself completely in to meditation. After 3 years he got a job in a Financial Institution. However even the work did not deter his whole hearted sadhana towards truth. His intense meditation continued. After seven years of seeking and searching, he burned himself completely in sadhana and realised the Real "I" or Aathman.

Guru's meeting with Kanchi Maha periyava

During his initial years as a sadhaka, Guru used to visit Kanchipuram Kamakshi Amman Temple. He also used to go for darshan of Kanchi Maha Periyava. On a particular day, when Guru stood in queue for darshan and when his turn came to pay obeisance toward the saint, the saint also brought his hands together as if he was saying "vanakkam". For the rest of the people, he raised his hands to bless them. Our Guru was startled as to why he did this act. So he stood in line for the second time and deja vu. Again the same thing happened. When he stood for the third time in line again the same happened. Our Guru did not understand at that point in time but later when he became enlightened he understood that it was a salute from an enlightened master to a future enlightened master!!!

During his initial years as a sadhaka, our Guru found it difficult to find a place that is condusive for meditation. The temples are normally closed during day time and are open only during early mornings and late evenings. During mornings and evenings our Guru used to meditate in temples. He used to wait at the temple gates for the temple to be opened and will come out of the temple only at the closing time of the temple. During the day time our Guru used to travel in local trains from the starting station till the ending station back and forth and meditate there silently unnoticed. Such was his quest towards truth. Our guru used to quote an example. A rocket can escape the force of gravitation only when it travels at escape velocity. Similarly a seeker can reach the truth only if he has a similar kind of urge, velocity. Thus, the local train was his day time temple.

During his quest for truth, He obtained darshan from some of the living masters like Koti Swami, Mayamma and Kanchi Maha periyavaa.

During the course of his quest for truth he chanced to stumble across a great secret.Normally temples are considered to be places with good positive vibe and generally it is good to meditate in temples.This is a basic fact known by all seekers. However, this is just the beginning. There are several secrets hidden.One great secret is that ancient temples actually contain the samadhis of several great masters.Though the masters are in their samadhi state, still out of their compassion they show the way to seekers. Stumbling on this secret completely multiplied his spiritual progress to an unimaginable level.
Thus, Guru started to perform sadhana in several ancient temples and Jeeva Samadhi temples. During his sadhana he received indirect help from several masters whilst meditating in their samadhi shrines. The masters who were instrumental in the spiritual growth of Guru were Gurulinga Swamigal, Narayana Theertha Swamigal and Arutprakasa Vallalar.

Guru meeting a contemporary master.

When Guru went to obtain darshan and blessings from vallimalai murugan temple, he went along with fellow seekers. The temple was situated at the top of the vallimalai hill. At the hill entrance, there were several beggers asking for alms. Our Guru stated that one of them who was alone, had an a very different and unusual pair of eyes. Eyes are the index of the soul. As soon as our Guru looked at that person, he looked as if who is that much spiritually evolved to look at the inner being. Then, There was a sudden communion and non verbal interaction between that person and the Guru and his eyes also acknowledged something.
Then when the other seekers, gave money to that person that person was laughing. His laugh was as if "Who is putting alms to Who". In other words he laughed as if an emperor is receiving alms from a begger.

Our Guru has stated the first experience of tasting the truth is like pulling the earth underneath the feet. It shocks the being to its very grassroots and going in it is like crossing the point of no return. Many sadhakas go up to that stage and out of fear they go back.
Guru has stated that there will be several experiences and indications happening when a seeker moves towards truth.
When Our Guru started moving closer towards truth he had several indications like he will forget his own name.
He will forget how he will look viz...he will forget his face. Normally a person cannot forget his own face. That happens only if every identification is being erased. There will be a constant fear lurking in the mind when a person is moving towards the unknown. At this point a seeker needs total trust and courage, because this is the point at which a person might go mad if he tries to step back. Our Guru used to say that, he used to feel that he is present when his he is with his family. But when he is alone in a room, there will be no body present including himself. Only there will be a physical presence. Everything else will be absent. At this kind of a maddening state, his marriage helped him find a kind of strong base that helped him towards enlightenment.